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两年了～
已经两年了～
我忍了很久～
忍耐的过程中～
我受了不少的苦～
也学了很多没学过的东西～
不断地在学习～

现在的我～
感到很矛盾～
因为我只有两条路可以走～
不是低头～
就是狼心地站起来～

我，
总觉得～
人总是很容易被误会～
跟异性朋友做好朋友有错吗？
而且还是被自己值得信任的人误会～
可能大家会因为我跟他常常聊得很开心～
而且每次一起下课～
但并不代表什么咯～
We're just good friends
there's nothing between us
he's my gayfriend
他是位女性化的男生～
that's why he's close with girls ~
we know who we admire ~
so we just good friends ~

it is stupid when you are crying of somthing like ignorance~
someone always ignore you~
bcause you had done something wrong ~
so they just ignore you~
so no matter how you try to apologize~
it's hard or won't work forever ~
I'm getting fed up now ~
when someone who you want to talk with had ingore it~
T.T

although how strong am I~
I won't be the strongest~
Many ppl would not know how strong am I ~
but most ppl don't know how weak am I～
I know ppl will be jealous if I am stronger then them ~
It will be happy when you are the strongest~
but for me~
it will be not good when you are too hapi~
too proud~
this why I hate comparison~
第一名并不是随便拿来炫耀的～
也不是拿来看不起那些弱小的人～
是要帮助那些弱小的人及作为他们的学习榜样～

I'm tired~
Gonna fall sick ~
I hope i can die earlier～
life is getting meaningless ~
bcause of me ~
things always get unpeaceful~
sad~
bad~
evil~

If my life is like the movie 'In Time'~
I would give all my time for those need it ~
no matter how much I had~
life = time
only stupid ppl want to die for stupid reasons ~
just like me~